I'm at the end of today's rope. There is a rope for every day. I'm having a glass of wine in front of the computer with iTunes blasting so I can't hear the screaming coming from the bedroom. Danika is just not sleeping during the day. I swear I have only had a break from holding for 10-15 minutes in the last 10 hours. I've gotten her to sleep 6-7 times but every time I put her down she wakes up and finally I just had to leave her for a few minutes. Not really because I think she'll go to sleep, because I don't, but because I'm fixin to lose it here. I remember going through this with Miles. It's hard because you get your hopes up and start to think about what you're going to do once they are down - it's so close you can touch it, but it's always out of your grasp when they won't cooperate. Miles is with his grandparents and so this is her big opportunity, there is no sleeping when Miles is here because I don't have the time to dedicate to putting her down and he wakes her up. I fantasize about those people who do nap time by just putting the baby in the crib, closing the door and walking away. Then again, I don't really know any people like that.
This is pretty negative..but maybe no one is reading it :)

Danika - 6 months

Sleep training cont.

On the 2nd night of sleep training, I let Danika cry for 35 minutes and then I caved. I ran into the bedroom and made a deal with Robert in true Secord fashion. I said hey, why don't we just split the nights going forward and I'll get up with her between 10-2 and you can handle 2-6. Part of me wishes Robert had not let me cave so easily but before he could even agree I was in Danika's room with my boob in her mouth. Oh well. I guess this means I haven't really "had it".

Kudos me

me: "I'm going to the gym today"
Robert: "you?"

I went to the gym today for the first time since before I gave birth to Miles. The key is...to go again.

Sleep Training. Yuck.

Sleep training starts tonight for Danika. We, or I should say mostly "I" have been getting up with her anywhere from 1 to 5 times a night and the time has come to see if she can fall asleep on her own so that she may be able to get back to sleep on her own when she wakes up. I hate the whole thing. I really do, but we did it with Miles and it worked and he's been a great sleeper ever since. I just have to remind myself that she won't remember any of it and she'll still love us tomorrow.

So far it's gone well. I put her in her crib awake, she cried and then went back to sleep when Robert went in to console her after 5 minutes. Hopefully it will continue. If not I have plenty of booze and an ample supply of ear plugs.